Life struggles comes into realization, by willing to accept small losses; we tend to sacrifice things for large gains. What is meant to be will end up good and what’s not – won’t. Love is worth fighting for, but sometimes you can’t be the only one fighting. At times, people need to fight for you. If they don’t, you just have to move on and realize what you gave them was more than they were willing to give you.
One day I woke up, feeling anxious and wanting to give up; I was upset to myself why simple things can’t be on a place like I want it to be; hoping that the next day will never come.
I stumbled and wandered around through an empty street like a madman. I simply shrug off every person who tends to comfort me and ignore the things I’m supposedly doing. I focus on negative things that make me feel as a total failure.
As I am walking on the railway, I overheard a man talking to an older man saying: “Sometimes life’s not being fair even though you have given everything that you’ve got, we still end up losing our hope to rise up“. I consciously nodded with what I’ve heard.
But then the older man countered him saying: “Nah, that’s a lie you haven’t given all what you’ve got yet, you have to prove them wrong child. I can see myself on you when I was at your age. Now look who would thought that the irresponsible, hopeless and failure child yesterday would build a shelter for homeless people.”
All throughout the night, I wasn’t able to sleep, the words “you have to prove them wrong child” that I’ve heard earlier keep playing on my mind. I keep on asking myself “Have I already proven something?” “Is it possible for me to do this…and that?” I was perhaps a hopeless person; clearly it wasn’t my family that inflicts this suffering but myself. Had in fact someone out there having much complicated problem than I am, were able to overcome their mischiefs. It could be that I am missing the stamina, courage and faith to deal in most worse-case situations.
Realization hits me. If I were to fall I had to rose and stand firm, and I will have my gloomy past as foundation for reflecting anew of my identity; and take inspiration out of it to keep on achieving my dreams and the palette of success, regardless of contemporary downsides. I will cultivate my patience and divert bad habits into something that would help me create a positive reality.